Hello Goodbye

It's late. Should be getting to sleep soon. I want to, but for some reason my mind is still running. My black tea is good. Dr.Oz says that it is a stress reducer. Do I have stress? I don't think I do. I mean work has been just that, work, but I don't believe it is stressing me out. I think I'm just kinda floating by. I need something to anchor me down. I need school.

I'm back on my own. For a whole 10 days. I'm not looking forward to it. Well I mean I still have the hubby, but when he's at work and I'm not at work, I'll be on my own. I don't like it. But maybe I can spend some quality time with myself and re-evaluate how I feel about my life.

But truly, I am happy. Yes, there are always issues and things to worry about, but really those are trivial. They come and go. What I am more concerned about is whether I can still smile in the dark. Whether I can look at my husband and feel the same way I did when I first fell in love with him. And I can truthfully say that I can still smile, I can still melt in my husband's arms.

I love being here. I love Okinawa. It is so beautiful, so inspiring. It makes me feel like I'm living in paradise. I don't ever want to leave. But one day we will and I will remember this time with fondness and nostalgia. But until then, I will cherish the time I have here, and the happiness that I feel. For happiness is not a sure thing no matter how much I wish it was.